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Name: n0d
Birthday: 10/28/1979
Gender: Male


Interests: Leaving Iraq in something other than a pinebox and with all of the limbs that I arrived here with.
Expertise: M240 B. M249. AT-4. Buttco.
Occupation: Operations
Industry: Real Estate


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Member Since: 3/27/2003

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Thursday, March 15, 2007

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Thursday, July 28, 2005

I stilllll functionnnnn.....


Tuesday, July 26, 2005

Currently Listening
Liquid Swords
By Genius, GZA
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I have come to the conclusion that Baghdad is still in me. I blamed certain feelings of anxiety on summer school. I was looking at a picture book of the life of soldiers in Iraq at Borders last night. I felt many different emotions  as I flipped through the pages. It's so funny how an experience like that is condensed into a book of pictures. I was holding it and it was kind of like a relic from a Role Playing Game. You know, it opens channels and allows you to casts really dope spells and all that...anyway...yeah, I'm a dork...but anyway... It was opening all kinds of emotions and thoughts.

When I was over there, I was living life as the seconds passed. You guys were over here having your everyday american life... doing homework...wshbtx...buttco...skrooooo....parday... I was thinking also...I wonder what you were doing on April 9th, when I came close to death and the day I erased human life. What were you doing that day? What were you doing the moments that my friends were dying? what were you doing  when all that fucked up action in my life was happening? Isn't it funny how lives grow apart to the point where someone could be on the verge of death or in a fucked up situation like that and you don't even know about it and you have all these carefree experiences of your own, when if you knew their situation you'd be concerned....I know some of you worried your asses off. Man. I just can't believe I made it back sometimes! and to think that alot of you cats didn't even know I went over there or know me before I got back, were having a happy dappy time back over here just blows my mind! it's not that I wanted you to be worried or feel sorry for me for any experiences that I had to go through...it's just that the U.S. and the life you have always known is really really um...

man, I'm just different from you. ALL of you. not on an elitest tip. well...kinda on an elitest tip. well the whole thing is I worried about life, life, life for a whole year... I get back and see people worried about what car should I buy, how can I get drunk the cheapest/fastest before I go to club, who should I be with, what should my major be, what school should I go to, etc....

man, it makes me miss worrying about only life and keeping friends alive cos I get caught up worrying about some of this shit and it makes me feel really fucking stupid, but I can't help it sometimes... it makes me want to alienate myself from everyone sometimes...actually go back to Iraq and get with other people that understand what I mean and forget about all the petty bullshit that happens over here (deep down I understand that it's supposedly imporant, but there's so much focus on what you SHOULD be and what you SHOULD do according to what the mold says...that these worries are a bunch of haaaayt). I HATE coming back to this posh world and getting tied up with the kiddie garbage and it effecting my life and people not understanding how I think... man, I just feel like being under some truley adverse conditions....I feel so wack succumbing to the mickey mouse bullshit stresses that this disneyland world has created.  I want no part in such fairy tales. I'll leave that to the fairy people. I'm a goblin and FUCK! I want to blow something up!

Okay... well... I had a nice vent...now it's time to edit such thingz.


Anyway, I've come to a conclusion that I should get a cleansing process these days. I've felt trapped for the longest time, but I'm starting to realize that there'r so many options that the G.O.D.- the G.O.D.- and the world that He created has to offer. So yeah... you know...we'll see what happens. Fall cleaning, such things, get such things out of APT that mess with a dottie's dome. pack into little corner. Or give away. such tingz.


a good verse from the oldschool....


Proverbs 3:5-6
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
  And do not lean on your own understanding.
6 In all your ways acknowledge Him,
        And He will make your paths straight

And for those of you that don't know about the G.O.D.
it comes from another good verse from the oldschool...

When a motherfucker steps out his place
And gets slapped in his motherfuckin face
Just because the motherfucker tried to base
The G.O.D., the G.O.D.

And while I see his whole click passes by
Motherfuckers think they qualify
And for those niggaz want to try
The G.O.D., the G.O.D.

-Genius GZA from the Wu Tang from his album Liquid Swords...one of my top 5 Hip Hop albums of all time.


verses galore. I won't front. Even though I talk all this cleansereisisng hayt, there is still some grittay in the nasty NoD that will never leave.

This Wu talk kinda makes me want to explain to some of you cats why I say, "dekaaaAAAALLB"... cos when cats talk about NIU I'm (or whoever else in my crew is around) always gotta chime, "dekaaaaaAAAALB" and then  we just get wierd looks.... cos we WEIURD.... we  WEIURDUNAH MUUG!

man, I make myself laugh sometimes. I'm craaaazy. But don't worry, I won't blow anything up...they took my AT-4 away, and I'm too ehlaaazay to make such plastique.

aggh...it's nice to have an angst ridden post every now and then.



Monday, July 25, 2005

Currently Listening
Fistful of Metal
By Anthrax
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This is for Bando the Commando....one day thrash metal will rule the world.


Sunday, July 24, 2005

Currently Listening
Honey
By The Ohio Players
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Man...the company didn't  bounce until 6-7 AM... you know why???

The movie was like 6 hours long! We all fell asleep pretty much. Man, that movie was kinda WACK too. I mean it was the Mahabarata and all, but man...stick to the book. Ajit gave me such things when I went overseas and it is quite dopay. Beeshma and such individuals.

Maus and NoD are running off of 2 hours of sleep...and well...we can't sleep.

 

Anyway, this is an S.O.S.

If you are down to kick it...please let the Maus or I know.

Please....

we need some people to kick it with.

we're tired of certain mindsets. you know. mundane, watered-down,  inherently negative mindsets. I think most cats on this friendslist are down by law. SO, let us know when you're in Citay and let's kick it... SO, come to citay soon and kick it.

The following individuals need not apply:

-"Duuuuude I got soooooo wasted last night"

-"I like to front"

-"I'm going to eat all your food even though you can't afford to buy it for me all the time"

-"I use my religion as an institutionalized means of relating/fitting in with other individuals, thus rendering me a very boring person without soul....and ultimately taking the true focus away from what 'religion' SHOULD be all about." i.e. "religion is a comfort zone/niche and I use it as a social tool- therefore I AM a tool."

-"I hate Mexicans and half Filipino people that look like Mexicans....and other brownies too."

-"I don't shower to the point where it will be hard for you to breath when you are in my general vicinity."

-"you're weeeeeird...."

-"He sooooo likes me because I'm the hottest thing on earth."

-"Your Caprice Classic is wack."

-"I don't like to think"

 

well that's it.

Peace.

 



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